Less than two months after having Scarlett, I participated in my first 5k since I was 6 months pregnant. I found the race the night before and decided to sign up last minute. It was the Sugar Rush hosted by my university and its goal was to raise funds for diabetes research. My sister has had Type I diabetes since she was eight years old so I figured this was something I should do.
This race was a very emotional experience for me. Probably because my hormones still hadn’t returned to normal. But either way, the thoughts running through my mind while running this race were triggered by my music playlist. This race acted as a big reflection on my life and at some points was pretty symbolic of my journey through life right now.
“Ten Thousand Hours” by Macklemore
I started my run with this song because it's just that great. I tell ya, if you're ever down in the dumps this is the song to listen to. “Ten Thousand Hours” has meant a lot to me these past few months as I've dedicated a lot of “blood, sweat, and tears” to figure out what I want to do with my life. I've taken on a lot of things and I am definitely overwhelmed and I am far beyond stressed. But just like I was determined to run this race only seven weeks after having a baby, I am determined to accomplish all the things I've got on my plate.
“I stand here in front of you today all because of an idea. I could be who I wanted if I could see my potential.”
“The Fighter” Gym Class Heroes
The first mile and a half or so of the run was up a massive hill. And I remember being so frustrated with myself because this hill was so hard. The doubts started to fly and I couldn't believe I felt like quitting on the first mile. And then I thought of my sister and who I was running this for. The purpose of this race was to raise funds to help her fight a disease she'll have for life. I thought of how strong she is and how she couldn't quite. So I kept going up that darn hill.
“Every time you fall it's only making your chin strong. And I be in the corner like mick, baby, til the end.”
“Not Afraid” by Eminem
This is another great song to listen to when you need a pep talk. By now I have finally overcome that beast of a hill and am coming down on my second mile of the race strong. I keep thinking about Scarlett and how I'm working so hard to build a life for her and to be an example of a strong woman that I want her to be. As a mom I feel like everything you do is wrong and someone always has an opinion of how you could Mom better. This song always reminds me that I don't need to care what other people think and I can be confident in my decisions for myself and my family.
“I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly. And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony.”
“So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof, like my daughters
And raise it, you couldn't lift a single shingle on it!.”
“Lighters” by Bad Meets Evil ft. Bruno Mars
This one made me tear up. I'm running on a flat road now and I just got my picture taken by the action shot photographer. So I'm obviously feeling pretty good. But this song makes me immediately think of my husband, Alexis. There hasn't been anyone who has been as supportive and motivating as Alexis. He has believed in me even when I didn't. Right now our lives are crazier than ever before as we are both super busy chasing after our dreams. Alexis doesn't always come home to a clean house, a home cooked meal, and a happy wife but he still supports me in everything that I'm doing. And that means the world to me.
“This one's for you and me, living out our dreams. We're all right where we should be.”
“Heart of the Champion” by Nelly
The race is almost over. I have less than a mile left to go. Now I start thinking about all the people in my life who have helped to shape me into the person I am today. I think of my biology teacher, Mr. Douglass, who constantly told me how smart I was and never let me settle for anything less that what I could achieve. Next, I think of my calculus teacher, Mrs. Mays, and how she taught me that I don’t have to do it all 100% and how health (whether mental, physical, emotional, or spiritual) comes first. Then I think of my english teacher, Ms. Ceccacci, who taught me about forgiveness and how to be understanding of other’s mistakes. I think of my family and friends and everyone who has been there for me.
“I got that can't stop, won't stop, in my veins. That's why they can't stop, won't stop, screaming the name.”
“All I Do Is Win” by DJ Khaled
I can now see the finish line. And what better song to boost your confidence than this one. Alexis is there watching and I finish strong. It’s the greatest feeling seeing people you love waiting for you at the end of a tough race.
This was definitely the hardest race I’ve ever run and it was by far the most emotional. This is one of the reasons why I love running so much. It’s just so therapeutic.
“All I do is win win win no matter what.”